Ok, let’s get real. The excitement is still there. But the nerves are definitely in full force. The thought, "What if I don't make it?!" is a real one. Another: "Ya know, a lot of people go into surgery for one thing and come out with a laundry list of other things." Another: "Have I really done everything that I could have done to improve this condition? Am I really on my last resort?" That last thought was the worst. It really is hard to say that I have done "everything."
What I know is that I have the rest of my life in front of me. Surgery can only make the rest of my life living with this condition better, not worse. So, I might as well try it. If for nothing else, the state of my condition will be exactly as it was before... right?