The past couple of weeks have been rough… like job, life, mentality… rough. There really is no easy way to sugarcoat it. When I was diagnosed I certainly struggled, but there was a glimmer of hope in there. Life could get better with the right amount of maintenance. And it was just my leg that I was concerned about… sole focus. Leg only.
Looking at my leg situation right now, I’d like to pat myself on the back and say that I’m doing pretty well. I have a routine that I stick to. I’m figuring out my diet and getting better at making choices. And I’m working through the daily fluctuations of life… some days are generally better than others.
But, when life is rough you find yourself looking down… a lot. I’m curling up anywhere I can. I’m walking with my head at my feet. I’m basically just motioning my way through the day. The world is my snowball.
Here’s what happens… when the world sucks my leg becomes just another thing to add to the snowball of suckyness in the world. Why me? What did I possibly do to deserve this?! It becomes the incarnation of all of the world’s suck.
At any rate, the moral of the story is: Head up. (Seriously.) Don’t look down.